Friday, June 19, 2015

My Mom Called

My mom called. I haven't spoken to her in decades. It seems so weird that a person can even say that. Decades.

She wasn't at my wedding or the birth of my children. She's never met my husband or her grandchildren. She's never seen my home or my life.

I've been searching for her for years. I just wanted to know if she was alive and ok. I even started a Facebook page and solicited the help of a television show.
In case you ever see this Mom, these are your grandchildren
My mom called. She didn't call me though. I found out that she contacted a family member six months ago. She called from a restricted number and wouldn't share any information that could be used to contact her. She told the family member that if he even told anyone that she called that she would never contact him again. (Sorry Mom - in his defense, he did wait half of a year to tell me.)

My mom called. She has a new family now. She has new children and a husband. She doesn't want them to know about us. Her life is good and she doesn't want us to jeopardize it.

So at least now we know. She's alive and ok.
Knowing that we are disposible shouldn't hurt any more. I've known that for years.

My mom called. My heart is broken.


Alexandra said...

If it helps you to know, that my heart is so heavy right now for you, that I'm crying, then I hope it does. I am so sorry. I can't imagine this pain.

Jo said...

Love you Alexandra. Thank you.