I tried to nurse Jamie when he woke this morning and he just wasn't interested. He latched for MAYBE .5 seconds and then was basically like "ALL DONE". He hasn't really been interested in nursing for weeks now. He NEVER asks on his own. I offer, sometimes he nurses and sometimes he doesn't. Mostly lately it's been that he doesn't.
I know in my heart that he's really done.
I realize that nursing for just over a year and seven months is amazing. I know it's far longer than most moms are able to do. I just feel so sad. I'm not ready for my baby to not want it anymore. We struggled so badly in the beginning and there were many times when I thought I just could not do it another minute. Somehow though, we managed to make it through.
I know how lucky I am not to go through a horrible weaning experience with him. I did what I said I'd do - I let him nurse until he was ready to walk away from it on his own. He is a strong, confident and happy boy and just doesn't need it anymore. But now that it's over my heart is breaking a little. My little baby boy just isn't a baby anymore. *sniffle*
Sad as I am, I'm still very proud to say: