Friday, March 12, 2010

2 AM

"2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, its no longer
inside of me, threatening the life they belong to
And i feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
oh breathe, just breathe.."

~Anna Nalick

I've had some things on my mind lately. Things that are darker than what I usually share. Sometimes I feel like I want need to talk about them but am not sure if I'm brave enough.

Life is so good for me and I don't want the past to intrude and mess it all up. So, open the box or shove back in the basement? As happy as I am, I also have this ...crap (for lack of a better word) that is still bouncing around in my head that sometimes wants to come busting out - usually at the most inconvenient times. Like 2 AM. VERY annoying by the way.

I'm thinking about starting another blog. Funny really, considering that I don't update this one as often as I'd like. It would be a blog where no one knows who I am, where I could say the words I want need to say without worry that someone who knows me will judge or look at me differently.

It would be a place where I wouldn't worry what people think and could just be ...me. Unedited and unafraid.

6 comments:

Sunshine Mama said...

Do it. It will probably be make you feel better.It will be like your diary.

Cop Mama said...

I think you already have your answer, my friend :-)

Amanda said...

I hope that you are able to then get out those crappy feelings and process them fully...

Blessings sweet girl!
Amanda

Christie@MommyDrinksBecauseYouCry said...

Do it! It is sooooo liberating!

Joe @ IrrationalDad said...

I have a second blog.... it hasn't been updated for about 8 or 9 months. Good luck!

Ash said...

Beautiful lady - get it out, and don't be afraid. Blog a la Cart is my therapy - where I can SCREW IT and put everything in my head down on paper. People that judge you don't matter anyway - and those that love you will feel privileged that you shared your thoughts with them. Feel empowered to take ownership of your thoughts - you're not alone.